not long now

i have not written in a while
life is too wierd
just pretend that life is worth living
good bye my friend
i don't like where i am and i don't know were i'm going
i'm on the eage of a cliff but only wanking round.
i think i'm getting there

abuse...

go tell the world this.... your a stupid fucking uptight dick that needs to keep his opinions to himself... just because you think one way doesnt mean everyone else has to... my god your a fucking jerk that takes things way to seriously... see ya dont bother ever speaking to me again

Bus to wyong

Heading to sydney for a job interview.

i can't

i can't seem to write... it has been a while since i wrote and i can't seem to get anything out... i'm worried

it's just a feeling

A sinking feeling like before
But this is different
Headache but no pain
Heavy heart but no feeling
Feel like yelling but no voice
Eyes sore but not seeing
How deep does this hole go?
If I hit the bottom will it hurt?
Or am I too far gone to feel anything?

Stop trinkets it hurts

You’ve been out gallivanting again
Without me knowing
You have dirt on your feet
Blood in your hair
Your hands are clogged with skin and bone
Why do you cut me so deep?
I feel like hate me
But the playful smile tells me otherwise
Why do you cause me so much pain?
So much torment?
I don’t want to do this
But it has to be done
You must die and your remains destroyed
I know you are part of me
But you can’t keep doing this to me
Don’t cry it will only hurt a little

random stuff that needed to come out

I don’t know how much more I can take of this. It is doing my head in. When do you call it a day and throw in the towel. It is all getting bigger and more confusing. My brain is not coping with the backlog of questions left unanswered. How do you do this? How do normal people like me do this without going insane? I suppose many people have done this before and many will go through it again but I want some insight just to get thought this bit. No one has advice that helps and they keep on asking me to give them advice. Who am I to give advice I can’t even look after myself? Why, oh why must it be this hard? Why won’t it just stop and give me a moment peace. I should do what P.B was going to do and just hide away under a rock. Somewhere nice and cool, hidden from the worlds anger and confusion. It would be very easy to drop off the radar. Turn my phone off, get a new e-mail, stop going on the net to find you and just go to work with no fun on the weekend. Maybe if I did these things you will just pop into my life and sweep me off my feet. But I think that is wishful thinking.

This is not the same as paper. I feel the same as before but with sore eyes. Its all short cut keys and stuff. not satisfied at all

Random thought

Love is unexplainable, fantastic and terrible
But worth it
I love love

I want to be yours forever… Be mine.

You are perfect…
No! Perfect is not enough
You are an angel
And that doesn’t seem that much
No one even stands a chance
It’s going to take a lot to surpass you
No ones going to
All of you better pick up your game
Or no ones going to win
You win
Oh to touch you
To kiss you
To see you for a moment
To be in your presence
Would stop this
Not for long
It wouldn’t be enough
I need you forever
I’ll love you forever
I’ll be yours
Forever
I’m yours
Forever is not long enough

I promise

You took a piece of me
A piece of my heart
It belongs to you
You will have it forever
I have a piece of you
You can’t have it back
It’s mine
No one can have it
Its mine forever
No one deserves it
Keep away
It’s mine
I’ll guard it with my life
I love you
I’m alone now
Your love haunts me
Tears won’t stop
They will flow me a river
To you
I’ll be there as soon as I

Here, there, everywhere, forever.

It had to happen
It was inevitable
I don’t feel right
I’m not here
I’m there with you
I know
A piece of me will be with you forever
I’ll be your
Whenever you want me
I’ll be here
Until I can get to you
I belong in your heart
Keep me there
I feel safe there
You live in mine
So close to me
I feel safe here
With you there
Stay with me everywhere
Forever

random thought

Why does everything work so well?
Like wheels in a clock
Well oiled and new
But the time is wrong
Everything is wrong
I can’t go on like this
Not for much longer

You won’t like me

Your mind so closed
Your face tells me nothing
Your smell on me
You’re on my mind
You won’t go away
I don’t want you to

Your eyes burn my soul
You smile lifts my sprit
Your body covering mine
Your lips on mine
Your breath on my skin
I want you now

Your hands all over me
Your fingers entwined in my hair
Your voice in my ear
You’re the one
You’re the only
I believe now

It hasn’t even started

I don’t want this to stop
I never seem to do this right
I always do this wrong
I’ve done it again
I want you
You probably hate me already

It’s all my fault