I don’t know how much more I can take of this. It is doing my head in. When do you call it a day and throw in the towel. It is all getting bigger and more confusing. My brain is not coping with the backlog of questions left unanswered. How do you do this? How do normal people like me do this without going insane? I suppose many people have done this before and many will go through it again but I want some insight just to get thought this bit. No one has advice that helps and they keep on asking me to give them advice. Who am I to give advice I can’t even look after myself? Why, oh why must it be this hard? Why won’t it just stop and give me a moment peace. I should do what P.B was going to do and just hide away under a rock. Somewhere nice and cool, hidden from the worlds anger and confusion. It would be very easy to drop off the radar. Turn my phone off, get a new e-mail, stop going on the net to find you and just go to work with no fun on the weekend. Maybe if I did these things you will just pop into my life and sweep me off my feet. But I think that is wishful thinking.
This is not the same as paper. I feel the same as before but with sore eyes. Its all short cut keys and stuff. not satisfied at all